Just like that we are in March. I was talking to a friend of Sunday and we both said it feels like every year just flies by – I think it is because we live to fast. I don’t remember feeling this way when Cameron and Kiara were babies – sure life was busy with 2 little ones but it was at frenetic as it is now. I am actively trying to change this – to slow down, be more present and make time for calm.
Back to the Share 4 Somethings: The idea is to share something we loved, something that sustained us, something we’re carrying forward from this month to the next, and something we’re making space for each month.
Something I loved in February….February was a tough month. We lost David’s mom on the 6th so most of the month was spent processing our grief. But there were moments of joy and happiness. One of my favourite things to do is go watch a live rugby match. It is always such a vibe and this weekend 2 of my favourite teams played making it a little extra exciting. A rather big storm broke as we arrived but luckily passed pretty quickly, we did have to sit in the rain for a bit but fortunately we have summer rains so it wasn’t cold.
The kids and I went for breakfast at a new spot and it was probably one of the best breakfasts I have ever eaten. It was so delicious I had to take David back the following week.
Something that sustained me…Coffee! No seriously I think it was a combination of things this month – my weekly coffee dates with Eve, David, coffee and walking. It was a tough month with lots of emotions for all of us, I took the sustenance from where ever I could.
Something I am carrying forward...January was a rubbish month, it felt very negative and doom and gloom and while February was covered in sadness, it started to feel lighter, especially after the Chinese New Year. I am holding on tight to that feeling of new energy and positivity and carrying that into the new month.
Something I am making space for…happiness and change. I have been feeling very stuck this year – not in a “I want to leave my husband and life” kinda way but more a “I want to do more with my life” kinda way. I am just not sure exactly what that “more” is. I want to make more space for whatever it is though. I want to do more, experience more and feel more until I can figure it out.
Looking back it has been quite a transformative, introspective month. Things are changing again and I am excited for what comes next for us.
I am so sorry for your loss. Give yourself time to process. I have felt that way, too. I am going to try to read Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert and I have a few other non-fiction books on happiness. I also make a monthly “fun goals” list. I am feeling more peppy with daylight savings time coming!
I lost my mom last year and retired and this year I just became an empty nester! I can definitely relate.
Thank you for sharing your honesty. Change is scary but so exciting! So sorry for your loss. Hoping you find more joys in the new month.
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That does sound very transformative and emotional! Wishing you brighter days to come!
I hope that you have a better month in March and I’m so sorry for your loss! I’m very inspired by your hopeful attitude moving forward. I’m glad to have found your blog! Thanks for sharing 🙂
Oh wow, that breakfast place looks incredible! Wishing you all the help/luck in figuring out the “more.” I’m starting to feel that same way myself now that the boys are all legal adults and don’t need much from me but I’m not really sure what it is I’d want to do.
So sorry to hear about your loss.
May you find the fulfillment you’re looking for as you process your grief and serve your people.