Weekly Wisdoms #12

How does it always seem to be Friday? I have the best intentions of starting this post earlier in the week but always end up only getting to it on Friday morning. Thankfully this week has had more positives than negatives, despite a few days of intense menopause rage. Emma is better thankfully, I am still a little congested but feel a million times better and life in general is starting to feel calmer. (touch wood and all that).

Glimmers

(Glimmers are micro-moments of joy that make us feel happy, hopeful, and safe.)

• It is Emma’s party tomorrow so I spent an afternoon shopping for her decor goodies and gifts. She is the only one who still lets wants a birthday party so I am taking full advantage of it.
• I went for a hike on my own, with Cocoa. It was tough and I did cut it short by a km but it was still good, Cocoa had so much fun. I am glad I made the effort to go on my own.
• Emma and I went to Cafe et Chocolat for our date and it was so good. She had waffles and I had a slice of gluten free cake – it was YUM.
• While out shopping I found this CALM diffuser so I bought it – I am determined to add calm to our lives. I have bought these before and always been disappointed but this one is amazing. I can smell it all the time and it brings me calm.
• We have a few more butterflies in the garden at the moment and the little guy in the photo was kind enough to pose for a photo for me.
• I found these glasses (see pics) at Checkers and they were perfect for the take home gifts for Emma’s party. I put the girl’s names on them and love how they came out.

My Weekly Wisdom..

I have spoken about control before and my need to control the grief process was part of the reason I ended up in a clinic last year. That is obviously a bad kinda control and has very negative consequences. I do think though that we all need to feel a certain amount of control in our every day lives to feel safe.

David and I were talking about why I was so out of sorts at the moment and it has been because I am struggling to get our rhythm going. I feel like I have very little control at the moment. I was very prepared for the school year but then Emma go sick which derailed her routine for almost 2 weeks. Adjusting to Jack’s work has been harder than I thought and while I thought I was prepared almost daily he needs something – modeling clay, bunsen burner, newspaper – I suppose I should I have read ahead in each subject but I didn’t, so here we are. I got sick which meant I had to cancel my walk with Eve and we struggled to reschedule. David is running with work at a mile a minute which is awesome but also means there is more on my work plate.

None of the things above are bad or anyone’s fault. It’s just life but it’s life happening all at once and messing with my well guarded routine and leaving my brain a little frazzled.

I discussed this a bit in therapy a few weeks ago and my therapist was saying how important it is to start getting back some sort of routine and structure back in our lives. I think talking to David about it, figuring out what the problem is will make it easier for me to get a little control back where I can.

Cool Things I Learnt

If you take an image that has a table of information on and ask Claude AI to create you an excel spreadsheet – he will do it! This made my life so much easier this week.

Gemini on Google can also build excel templates for you. It is such a simple thing but saves so much time – give it the parameters and bam your table is done. It will also give you content which I found out my accident.

Claude has also been helping Jack and I with maths problems we are struggling with – this is a game changer for us (me).

Picture of the Week

Wise Words of the Week

I may not have remarkable victories, but I can amaze you with the defeats I survived.
— Chekhov

Until next week!