Weekly Wisdoms #5

I recently spent a week in a clinic for my mental health. I got back at the end of November and while it was healing and what I needed, I have been struggling since then to put words to paper. I have had lots to say and there is so much I wanted to share but I physically could not bring myself to start writing. Until today.

I opened up this site and wasn’t sure where to start and then saw this weekly series and decided since it was Friday today, this would be a great place to start getting the writing juices going again.

Glimmers

(Glimmers are micro-moments of joy that make us feel happy, hopeful, and safe.)

• We are currently at Theewaterskloof in the Western Cape in David’s uncles holiday home. We have been here for 3 days so far and it has been so good for us. It is beautiful, there is stuff for the kids to do and we are just enjoying being together.
• Every morning I get up early, sit on the patio, enjoy a cup of coffee and my cookies while I read. It has been heavenly.
• We spent a lovely weekend with my family in Montagu. We had our Christmas feast and swapped gifts. It was really nice to spend time with my family.
• David and I had 3 days in Cape Town before heading to Montagu to fetch the kids and it was so good. We took Kiara out for lunch and milkshakes, did some shopping, did some work, chilled with David’s aunt and uncle and gran.
• David’s cousin is here for a few days and he is really good with Emma. They have discovered she may have a real talent for golf.
• The weather in the Western Cape has been glorious. It has been cool, some may say even cold. It gets hot during the day but nowhere near as oppressive as the heat we were experiencing in Pretoria.
• I have read 3 books since we left. I bought 5 books with so currently on the second to last one.

My Weekly Wisdom

“Emotional pain is not something that should be hidden away and never spoken about. There is truth in your pain, there is growth in your pain, but only if it’s first brought out into the open.” — Steven Aitchison

I don’t really want to get to heavy in this post but this quote above really hit home for me. I was doing an outstanding job of hiding my emotional pain. I was fighting back tears, keeping busy, moving forward, carrying on – being strong. Until I physically couldn’t anymore. No one was telling me I had to do this, I had support and the space to feel my feels but it was just too much for me to face.

I have never really been good at feeling big feelings, I generally just avoid or try fix or organise or something else. But this time is different, I can’t organise my way out of the loss of my child. So I had to bring it out into the open which felt impossible at the time. But I did it, well I started to anyway and I want to say there was growth in my pain but I am not so sure yet but there was definitely some progress and I do feel better equipped now to face this process.

Cool Things I Found on the Internet

I haven’t been on the internet much recently so not a whole lot to share this week.

This TikTok! I don’t really want to be strong anymore!

This weeks pretty picture.

Wise Words of the Week

“If you are wondering who your people are, they are the ones who make your heart feel seen and your nervous system feel calm. Yes, it’s that simple.” ~Yung Pueblo.